Your first name of Hongyan has made you happiest when you are expressing in some creative, artistic way, and not conforming to strict routine. You enjoy reading and can become so absorbed that you are unaware of what is happening around you. Occasionally, when you are unhappy or disappointed by something, you can be moody and temperamental, and feel misunderstood and unappreciated. As you dislike monotony, you are inclined to scatter your efforts and put off handling details until you are forced to take action. You are deep, philosophical, and refined, but your extremely sensitive nature causes you to become depressed and self-pitying over any real or imagined slight. The mysteries of life, the phenomena of nature, and religious and occult concepts appeal to your desire to understand the deeper aspects of life. In a large group of comparative strangers, you are quiet and rather shy, unable to express yourself, not really wanting to become involved in conversation. When you feel you are understood, you then must guard against jealousy and possessiveness. You find the beauties of nature, fine music, art, and literature--all the deeper things of life--inspiring. The reserved, sensitive side of your nature brings aloneness and friction into your life, although you crave affection and understanding.