Your first name of Ponkai has made you happiest when you are expressing in some creative, artistic way, and not conforming to strict routine. Your friends seldom know what to expect from you because of this dual character—friendly and charming one moment or lost in introspection the next. These contrasting natures make it difficult for people to understand you and can lead to friction in your personal life. When you feel you are understood, you then must guard against jealousy and possessiveness. Others impose upon your generosity at times, and you do not always reap the rewards for all that you do. If you are not careful, people take advantage of your generous nature. You tend to scatter your efforts, often not finishing what you start, particularly when the task becomes mundane. In a large group of comparative strangers, you are quiet and rather shy, unable to express yourself, not really wanting to become involved in conversation. The reserved, sensitive side of your nature brings aloneness and friction into your life, although you crave affection and understanding. You find the beauties of nature, fine music, art, and literature--all the deeper things of life--inspiring.