Your first name of Neshanda has made you happiest when you are expressing in some creative, artistic way, and not conforming to strict routine. By taking a walk in nature, you can often settle turmoil within yourself. The mysteries of life, the phenomena of nature, and religious and occult concepts appeal to your desire to understand the deeper aspects of life. As you dislike monotony, you are inclined to scatter your efforts and put off handling details until you are forced to take action. You tend to scatter your efforts, often not finishing what you start, particularly when the task becomes mundane. In a large group of comparative strangers, you are quiet and rather shy, unable to express yourself, not really wanting to become involved in conversation. You enjoy the out-of-doors, the beauties of nature, and experience peace and relaxation in outdoor activities. These contrasting natures make it difficult for people to understand you and can lead to friction in your personal life. The reserved, sensitive side of your nature brings aloneness and friction into your life, although you crave affection and understanding. You find the beauties of nature, fine music, art, and literature--all the deeper things of life--inspiring.