Your first name of Tushula has made you happiest when you are expressing in some creative, artistic way, and not conforming to strict routine. However, self-consciousness, at times, prevents you from feeling at ease in positions of impromptu self-expression. Others impose upon your generosity at times, and you do not always reap the rewards for all that you do. You love to argue and can be strong-willed, but you are easily hurt by the comments of others. Your close friends are few. In a large group of comparative strangers, you are quiet and rather shy, unable to express yourself, not really wanting to become involved in conversation. Occasionally, when you are unhappy or disappointed by something, you can be moody and temperamental, and feel misunderstood and unappreciated. A very individual, independent person, you live within your own thoughts. You find the beauties of nature, fine music, art, and literature--all the deeper things of life--inspiring. The reserved, sensitive side of your nature brings aloneness and friction into your life, although you crave affection and understanding.