Your first name of Xiuhua has made you happiest when you are expressing in some creative, artistic way, and not conforming to strict routine. However, self-consciousness, at times, prevents you from feeling at ease in positions of impromptu self-expression. When you are with acquaintances and strangers, you tend to be reserved and reticent, shy and secretive but, on the other hand, with close friends you can sometimes be the life of the party, expressive, humorous, dramatic, and fun-loving. If you are not careful, people take advantage of your generous nature. When you feel misunderstood, you become very reserved and quiet, and do not want to be with people. You find it difficult to say “no” and mean it. These contrasting natures make it difficult for people to understand you and can lead to friction in your personal life. You long for love and affection and for your sensitive feelings to be understood. The heart and lungs could also be affected at stressful times. You find the beauties of nature, fine music, art, and literature--all the deeper things of life--inspiring.