Your first name of Ndidiamaka has given you a desire for self-expression and for positions that allow contact with people, free from the restrictions and monotony into which you are often drawn. You enjoy surprises to a degree, yet it is difficult for you to adjust quickly. Although you would like to be natural in conveying emotional sentiments, you tend to be matter-of-fact and practical in expressions of appreciation for others. You are friendly by nature, but you cannot enjoy complete ease in association because of a difficulty in expressing yourself. Love and affection are motivating qualities within you, but it is not easy for you to find the words to express your deeper feelings of affection. However, despite the hurt, you do not tend to brood for long, as you want to be happy and optimistic. Although you can be thorough in whatever you decide to undertake, you prefer to avoid technical, mathematical work. This disparity creates frustration within you as you cannot consistently maintain the system and order you desire. There is conflict between your desires and your expression which does not allow scope for your capabilities. This lack of fulfilment of your deeper qualities tends to create repression and frustration.