Your first name of Saderia has made you happiest when you are expressing in some creative, artistic way, and not conforming to strict routine. You are happiest when you are expressing in some artistic way, free from monotony and detail. You long for love and affection and for your sensitive feelings to be understood. However, self-consciousness, at times, prevents you from feeling at ease in positions of impromptu self-expression. You seldom like your time to be organized rigidly by others, but like to do things in your own way, at your own time. Your close friends are few. You enjoy the out-of-doors, the beauties of nature, and experience peace and relaxation in outdoor activities. Your friends seldom know what to expect from you because of this dual character—friendly and charming one moment or lost in introspection the next. You find the beauties of nature, fine music, art, and literature--all the deeper things of life--inspiring. The reserved, sensitive side of your nature brings aloneness and friction into your life, although you crave affection and understanding.