The name of Alexendrei gives you a clever, quick, analytical mind, but you suffer with a great deal of self-consciousness, lack of confidence, and much aloneness because of misunderstandings. Personal experiences of an intuitive nature have given you an awareness of the invisible forces of nature causing you to theorize about life and its mysteries. Because you tend to place great importance on little gestures and nuances, both in your own expression and in others' communication with you, it is easy for you to misconstrue another's intent and take too personally what is not meant to hurt. Although self-conscious in front of people, when you put on a costume you could excel at performing arts, even to the point where you lose a sense of reality. There are times when you experience inner turbulence at your inability to say what you mean. Your reactions to people vary according to how you feel. In your quest for answers you may become drawn into religions or the occult. Feeling inadequate in creating closeness and harmony in close relationships, you could become insecure, jealous, withdrawn, and repressed, and could suffer loneliness. Outwardly you often appear calm and in control, while inwardly you are experiencing turmoil and tension. You crave affection but seldom find anyone who understands your nature.
