Your first name of Baelean has given you a desire for self-expression and for positions that allow contact with people, free from the restrictions and monotony into which you are often drawn. Giving yourself something to look forward to provides the incentive to work your way through monotonous tasks. Although you enjoy surprises to a degree, it is difficult for you to adjust quickly to unexpected change or opportunity. You want to plan and budget, and to maintain a well-ordered life, but it is difficult to follow through with your plans. It is easier for you to concentrate on, and enjoy, activities when they are combined with creativity and self-expression. You desire to be spontaneous and artistic but there are qualities in this name that restrict your imaginative, creative talents and make you deliberate and careful. This disparity creates inner frustration as you cannot consistently maintain the system and order you strive for. In your personal relationships you thrive on encouragement and appreciation from others, and kindness goes a long way in bringing out your naturally cheerful disposition. This lack of fulfilment of your deeper qualities tends to create repression and frustration. There is conflict between your desires and your expression which does not allow scope for your capabilities.
