The name of Beanta gives you a clever, quick, analytical mind, but you suffer with a great deal of self-consciousness, lack of confidence, and much aloneness because of misunderstandings. Because you tend to place great importance on little gestures and nuances, both in your own expression and in others' communication with you, it is easy for you to misconstrue another's intent and take too personally what is not meant to hurt. Feeling inadequate in creating closeness and harmony in close relationships, you could become insecure, jealous, withdrawn, and repressed, and could suffer loneliness. There are times when you experience inner turbulence at your inability to say what you mean. It is often only through writing that you can express your higher ideals or your true appreciation for those you love. Although self-conscious in front of people, when you put on a costume you could excel at performing arts, even to the point where you lose a sense of reality. You are deeply moved by the beauties of life, especially nature. In your quest for answers you may become drawn into religions or the occult. This conflict will have a toll on your health and could show in weaknesses in your heart, lungs, and bronchial organs. Outwardly you often appear calm and in control, while inwardly you are experiencing turmoil and tension.
