The name of Benaka gives you a clever, quick, analytical mind, but you suffer with a great deal of self-consciousness, lack of confidence, and much aloneness because of misunderstandings. Your feelings run deep and you crave love and affection but, because you seldom share your thoughts, others find it difficult to understand your needs, even if they wish to make you happy. Your reactions to people vary according to how you feel. You are sensitive about your idealistic thoughts, and an unappreciative person can hurt you and cause you to become secretive about that which you value deeply. In your quest for answers you may become drawn into religions or the occult. You tend to be secretive and noncommittal about private matters, yet at times you will talk effusively in order to hide your self-consciousness or to lead others away from personal subjects. Your idealistic and sensitive nature gives you a deep appreciation for the finer things of life and a strong desire to be of service to humanity. Feeling inadequate in creating closeness and harmony in close relationships, you could become insecure, jealous, withdrawn, and repressed, and could suffer loneliness. Outwardly you often appear calm and in control, while inwardly you are experiencing turmoil and tension. You are inspired by encouragement from others, yet suspicious of their intent.
