The name of Benipada gives you a clever, quick, analytical mind, but you suffer with a great deal of self-consciousness, lack of confidence, and much aloneness because of misunderstandings. You could excel in mathematics or science or other fields that require extreme focus and concentration, or you could be drawn to working with the products of the earth. It is often only through writing that you can express your higher ideals or your true appreciation for those you love. You find pleasure in literature, in poetry, and in your ideals and will turn to them when you feel you have been misunderstood. You crave peace and tranquillity, but seldom attain it, although you may find a degree of mental freedom when you go out into nature. Feeling inadequate in creating closeness and harmony in close relationships, you could become insecure, jealous, withdrawn, and repressed, and could suffer loneliness. In your quest for answers you may become drawn into religions or the occult. Your idealistic and sensitive nature gives you a deep appreciation for the finer things of life and a strong desire to be of service to humanity. Outwardly you often appear calm and in control, while inwardly you are experiencing turmoil and tension. You are inspired by encouragement from others, yet suspicious of their intent.
