The name of Bolkonsky has given you an appreciation for many beautiful and refined aspects of life--music and art, literature, drama--and the outdoors, where you find much peace and relaxation, but it creates a far too sensitive nature. This name gives you a strong appreciation of nature and sensitivity to the deeper questions of life. In your personal relationships, self-consciousness and a fear of your deeper thoughts and feelings being misunderstood or belittled inhibit spontaneous verbal expression. You sense and feel much that you do not understand, and sometimes you are alarmed at your thoughts and wonder about their origin. There would be a risk that uncontrolled, morbid thoughts could undermine your mental stability, causing extreme worry and irrational behaviour. Given the training and opportunity, you could excel in music, art, drama, or writing. If you do not cultivate the positive, constructive expression of your inner feelings through creative activity, you could become lost in fantasy and idle dreaming. Emotional urges could disrupt your personal relationships. You have suffered many disappointments and misunderstandings because of your inability to express your inner thoughts. You crave understanding and affection but your intensity of desire and your self-consciousness prevent you from finding the happiness you desire.
