The name of Botan gives you a clever, quick, analytical mind, but you suffer with a great deal of self-consciousness, lack of confidence, and much aloneness because of misunderstandings. You desire refinement and are easily offended by coarse humour or bad manners. Because you tend to place great importance on little gestures and nuances, both in your own expression and in others' communication with you, it is easy for you to misconstrue another's intent and take too personally what is not meant to hurt. In your quest for answers you may become drawn into religions or the occult. You tend to be secretive and noncommittal about private matters, yet at times you will talk effusively in order to hide your self-consciousness or to lead others away from personal subjects. You could excel in mathematics or science or other fields that require extreme focus and concentration, or you could be drawn to working with the products of the earth. Because your feelings run deep, you must guard against the ups and downs, being very inspired one minute, then moody, reserved, and depressed the next. Although self-conscious in front of people, when you put on a costume you could excel at performing arts, even to the point where you lose a sense of reality. Outwardly you often appear calm and in control, while inwardly you are experiencing turmoil and tension. You crave affection but seldom find anyone who understands your nature.
