Your first name of Bozhdekh creates an idealistic, sensitive nature and a desire for culture and the refinements of life. As you often feel nervous, self-conscious, lonely, and self-pitying, you would give anything to be natural, fun-loving, and expressive. It is much more natural for you to express your deeper thoughts in writing. The inclination to daydream needs to be curbed as it is detrimental to mental progress. Although you are a kind person who desires association and friendship, you are really rather shy. You realize there must be much more to life than what is on the surface and it is the wondering that fascinates you. Your fondness for rich foods lacking in proper nourishment compounds your problems. Being idealistic has a creative side, but being too idealistic has a tendency to shut out reality. Procrastination is a weakness, for so often you are inclined to avoid issues and to leave things undone until the last moment when you are forced to take action. You want the best, but lack the confidence and aggressiveness to materialize your desires.
