The name of Caijon gives you a clever, quick, analytical mind, but you suffer with a great deal of self-consciousness, lack of confidence, and much aloneness because of misunderstandings. Personal experiences of an intuitive nature have given you an awareness of the invisible forces of nature causing you to theorize about life and its mysteries. It is far easier for you to express your deeper thoughts and feelings through writing than verbally. There are times when you experience inner turbulence at your inability to say what you mean. Feeling inadequate in creating closeness and harmony in close relationships, you could become insecure, jealous, withdrawn, and repressed, and could suffer loneliness. You could excel in mathematics or science or other fields that require extreme focus and concentration, or you could be drawn to working with the products of the earth. You tend to be secretive and noncommittal about private matters, yet at times you will talk effusively in order to hide your self-consciousness or to lead others away from personal subjects. It is often only through writing that you can express your higher ideals or your true appreciation for those you love. You are inspired by encouragement from others, yet suspicious of their intent. Outwardly you often appear calm and in control, while inwardly you are experiencing turmoil and tension.
