Your first name of Mordechai has given you a desire for self-expression and for positions that allow contact with people, free from the restrictions and monotony into which you are often drawn. Although you desire to be spontaneous and natural, you are often drawn into technical and methodical lines of endeavour and the incidentals of life. You desire to be spontaneous and artistic but there are qualities in this name that restrict your imaginative, creative talents and make you deliberate and careful. Giving yourself something to look forward to provides the incentive to work your way through monotonous tasks. Family and home life are important as long as a routine does not become monotonous. However, despite the hurt, you do not tend to brood for long, as you want to be happy and optimistic. Although you enjoy surprises to a degree, it is difficult for you to adjust quickly to unexpected change or opportunity. However, you find it difficult to reciprocate, as your expression tends to be matter-of-fact in responding to others. There is conflict between your desires and your expression which does not allow scope for your capabilities. This lack of fulfilment of your deeper qualities tends to create repression and frustration.
