As Nikolajs you have a great love of nature and the out-of-doors, and could have a desire to be in an occupation which takes you outdoors and involves you with the products of the earth. Restricted expression can bottle up your feelings, making you inflexible and stubborn with a tendency to force your ideas on others. Conflict between your deep inner nature and your blunt outer nature does not make it easy for others to draw close to you, especially when you become withdrawn and moody. Frustration in creating the understanding you sincerely desire could result in tension, unhappiness, and outbursts of temper that could adversely affect your health. You have an awareness of your difficulty in establishing harmony in relationships and in showing affection and appreciation for those you value. You prefer to work free from outside authority or supervision and are happiest on your own where you can put your ingenious ideas into practical use without interference from others. The average person would never realize the true depth of your nature. This name makes you reserved, sensitive, and craving love and understanding. Eyes, ears, or throat problems, sinus congestion, or headaches could result. The insecurity you experience from limited verbal expression and social ease results in a jealous possessiveness and suffering through frustration, repressed emotion, and self-consciousness.
