The name of Nilyotpal gives you a clever, quick, analytical mind, but you suffer with a great deal of self-consciousness, lack of confidence, and much aloneness because of misunderstandings. Because you tend to place great importance on little gestures and nuances, both in your own expression and in others' communication with you, it is easy for you to misconstrue another's intent and take too personally what is not meant to hurt. You crave peace and tranquillity, but seldom attain it, although you may find a degree of mental freedom when you go out into nature. There are times when you experience inner turbulence at your inability to say what you mean. You are sensitive about your idealistic thoughts, and an unappreciative person can hurt you and cause you to become secretive about that which you value deeply. Your idealistic and sensitive nature gives you a deep appreciation for the finer things of life and a strong desire to be of service to humanity. You desire refinement and are easily offended by coarse humour or bad manners. It is often only through writing that you can express your higher ideals or your true appreciation for those you love. You are inspired by encouragement from others, yet suspicious of their intent. Outwardly you often appear calm and in control, while inwardly you are experiencing turmoil and tension.
