As Ampersand you have a great love of nature and the out-of-doors, and could have a desire to be in an occupation which takes you outdoors and involves you with the products of the earth. Conflict between your deep inner nature and your blunt outer nature does not make it easy for others to draw close to you, especially when you become withdrawn and moody. You crave affection and understanding, but rarely find it as others do not understand you and accuse you of being cool and aloof. Often, it is only as you express yourself in writing that others have a glimpse of your genuine feelings and how you truly think. Your secretive nature can make others feel insecure and undervalued, and lead to turmoil in close friendships. It is only out in nature that you find any degree of relaxation and peace. Difficulty in expression results in your being too positive, blunt, and candid in speech. Contrary to your intent, you appear uncooperative, uncaring, and self-centred. Eyes, ears, or throat problems, sinus congestion, or headaches could result. The insecurity you experience from limited verbal expression and social ease results in a jealous possessiveness and suffering through frustration, repressed emotion, and self-consciousness.
