Your first name of Begawan has created a deep, sensitive, refined nature with an intelligent mind and a keen appreciation of material values. You have strong ideas on how you wish your affairs to be organized and you do not appreciate interference from others. Although you have a sensitive inner nature and a desire for affection and understanding, your dignified manner and reserve often give the impression that you are aloof and wishing to distance yourself. Those close to you may feel unsettled and insecure because of mixed messages: you show an undercurrent of possessiveness yet you hesitate to express affection, appreciation, and tenderness. There is a tendency to be controlling both in business and in your personal life. Others could perceive you as proud, and even unfriendly. Thus, you can experience loneliness. In dealing with others, you have high expectations and, possibly, a sense of entitlement in your attitude. You live much within your own thoughts, and seek relaxation away from people, out in nature, where you can ease the tensions of your life. You find it difficult to express your true feelings, whether it be affection, appreciation, or tenderness, which play such an important part in creating a close bond within the family.
