As Brian-John you have a great love of nature and the out-of-doors, and could have a desire to be in an occupation which takes you outdoors and involves you with the products of the earth. It is only out in nature that you find any degree of relaxation and peace. You have an awareness of your difficulty in establishing harmony in relationships and in showing affection and appreciation for those you value. Restricted expression can bottle up your feelings, making you inflexible and stubborn with a tendency to force your ideas on others. Conflict between your deep inner nature and your blunt outer nature does not make it easy for others to draw close to you, especially when you become withdrawn and moody. Your secretive nature can make others feel insecure and undervalued, and lead to turmoil in close friendships. The average person would never realize the true depth of your nature. Unfortunately, it also causes a restriction in your expression. A very individual, independent person, you live within your own thoughts. The insecurity you experience from limited verbal expression and social ease results in a jealous possessiveness and suffering through frustration, repressed emotion, and self-consciousness.
