The name of Illugi has given you an appreciation for many beautiful and refined aspects of life--music and art, literature, drama--and the outdoors, where you find much peace and relaxation, but it creates a far too sensitive nature. If you do not cultivate the positive, constructive expression of your inner feelings through creative activity, you could become lost in fantasy and idle dreaming. When the mood suits you, you can be engaging and entertaining in a social situation, but you can swing unpredictably at the slightest offence, real or imagined, into a chilling silence that rebuffs others. When circumstances require the expression of sympathy or appreciation, you prefer to respond in writing. Emotional urges could disrupt your personal relationships. You rarely experience the tranquility that comes with stability of thinking or emotional control. Also, you could develop an extraordinary ability to concentrate on complex theoretical subject matter such as mathematics, although your success in such endeavours would be limited by a lack of patience and perseverance, and by difficulty in sustaining systematic effort over the long term. At times, you are very inspired, desiring to be with people and to entertain others as the "life of the party," while at other times you are aloof and choose to remove yourself entirely from association. You crave understanding and affection but your intensity of desire and your self-consciousness prevent you from finding the happiness you desire. You have suffered many disappointments and misunderstandings because of your inability to express your inner thoughts.
